Can I just ignore it?

I'm not a big TV watcher and don't hang on every word the news reporters say, but I did hop on over to Facebook, only to see a post that my oldest daughter posted this morning.  I had gotten a text pretty similar to it this AM just as my alarm went off.

Stephanie is a very compassionate lady and feels the pain of those she loves and who need love.  She is a graduate nurse, wife, and mother of 2 beautiful boys, ages 5 and 2.5months.  Her post was a prayer to our Father for the families of the killed and wounded at the movie theater, for the assailant, and for our country.  Her text was a prayer to God for me, and a verse to comfort and encourage me.  I am blessed to be called Stephanie's mom.

My ultrasound went fine, wasn't too painful and I didn't read panic on the technician's face so it must have been fairly routine.  I'm glad that all seems to be  normal, but a bit perplexed.  I do have unexplained swelling, enlarged lymph nodes, and sharp pain to my right side.  I also have an ongoing low grade fever and elevated white blood cell count.  I'm not going to ignore it, but I'm not going to freak out anymore.  I think it can be like that in life too, we can run around checking here and there for the answers to the questions that we have for God and still not find them.  It could be that we aren't supposed to know, or that He is not going to reveal the answer until we search more or trust Him more.  Probably both.

I'm feeling pretty confident now that I do not have stomach cancer, a "hot" appendix, gall stones, ovarian cancer or liver issues.  I think I will live.  How long is up to God. lol  So, I need to pick myself up, dust myself off and start all over again. 

The way I see it is that God has His hand in every facet of our lives.  As it says in the Bible, He guides our steps, clothes the flowers of the field, and know when even a bird falls from the sky.  That is pretty comforting.  My prayer is also for the families of the victims, as they are victims too.  They have one benefit though, they still have time to make their life count, to touch another soul, and to have their voice heard. 
None of us know if this is our last breath, so lets make it good.

xoxox